When God Provides Just What You Need

He will pray to God, and God will delight in Him. That person will see His face with a shout of joy, and God will restore his righteousness to him. Job 33:26

God has shown me so much in the past few months. He and I have grown so much closer, wait, let me rephrase that, I have grown so much closer in my walk with God. As my pastor always says, God never moved to start with, I am the one who needed to move closer to him. I have dealt with many issues in my life, illness, loss, devastation, and the everyday struggles of being a mother, wife and Christian. Going to church, and walking through the routine, were always what I told myself, would keep me close to God. Wow, was I deceiving myself. I think I can come up with some of the best excuses in the world, but at the end of the day, they are just excuses and I am only hurting myself by making them. When I started working on how I was going to help others through my experiences, I never thought it would change my life in the way it has. When I dig into God's word expecting to hear God, and let Him reveal what He wants me to do or say, He teaches me so much about where He is in my life and where He wants me to be. I have learned so much about myself and God through this experience in just a few short months, I can't wait to see where we go from here.

One of the biggest lessons I've learned recently is that sometimes God's blessing isn't what He gives us but what He doesn't allow us to have. Wow, you mean a blessing doesn't have to be receiving something? How does that make sense? You see I recently prayed for something and told God, I want your will. If it's your will then I want it, if it's not your will, please don't let me have it. Then I told myself, okay, you said it, now believe it. You have to be okay with His decision, because you told him you wanted His will, not yours. Well, guess what? I didn't get it! I immediately, said why? Then I realized, there is a reason, let it go! Y'all! That is so hard. I had to give myself a pep talk for days to keep from getting upset! A few weeks went by and God revealed something to me. If he gives me everything in this world I ask for, then my life and all my time will be filled with the world. When will I have time for His plan? When will I have time to spend with Him, intamitley, in His word? I'won't! I started today 's blog post by telling your how wonderful my time with God, in his word, has been. Then I told you how I prayed for something that would take my time away from Him. Then how I got upset when that wasn't His will! Sometimes I worry about my sanity, because that just makes no sense. Why would I ask for something to steal my joy? Why would I ask for something that would rob me of this new blessing I have found in Him?? You see we are our own worst enemy. When we give it to God, we have to let him have it. We have to give up that control that we love so much, yet complain about. We have to LET IT GO!

If you want to see what God can do in your life, or have to let Him. Love Him, trust Him, get into His word and stop talking and listen to Him. He has a lot to say if we will just let Him say it!

Don't steal your own Joy!

The Faithful Farmgirl