Reflection of Fall

As I reflect on all the craziness of the past two months, my mind wants to complain, fuss, get mad, frustrated, just have a total meltdown, but God. This summer was a whirlwind of craziness. We worked everyday and night on our house and we are finally home, a year and a half after losing it all to the tornado in December of 2021. Praise God!! The last week of July my husband, who is diabetic, lost two toes and part of his foot, due to a blister that got infected. We have been through many health trials due to my health issues so I had full faith that this was just another bump in the road to add to our story, to glorify God. I kept my head up and pushed forward, dealing with contractors and a very busy 14 year old and my husband who is now in a wheelchair. My husband had just switched jobs after 14 years and had only 13 days of sick time, this meant one income! Again, I told God this was in his hands and there was nothing I could do to fix this situation, and completely had to give everything to Him. I know, your thinking how do you just give it to God and let go? Just let me tell you, when you have spent every penny you have and then some to get home, and bills still coming in, plus hospital bills, you have to give it to him or lose you mind. Everyday when I woke up, I had to give it to God (remind myself he was taking control), every night when I went to be I had to give it to God (remind myself he was taking control), and this was my saving grace. By giving it to God, I let myself off the hook. I knew I could not control the situation but He not only could, He would. All I had to do was ask. There were days, when I didn't know where the money would come from. How was I going to pay this bill? The pantry was getting low and I had no money to go to the grocery. My daughter had school fees, my new tire blew, taxes were due on the cars, property taxes were due!!! I was constantly on the run between work and taking care of my husband, daughter, all the house work, the contractors, the insanity is real y'all!

Now that we are hopefully, in the last stretch of this storm in our lives, I look back and it is such a blur. There are days I don't even remember to be honest, but I will never forget who carried me through. God healed my husband, paid my bills, fed my family, finished my house, and never for one second left my side or told me I wasn't worthy, but trust me I'm not! I'm at the point in my journey with Christ, that the more I go through, the more I want to know Him. The more struggles I go through, the more struggles I want to study that He went through, and how He delt with it. He is my strength, my wisdom, my savior. In Him I am worthy, He told me so. Is life always fun? Absolutely not! Are you capable of handling all that is thrown at you? Absolutely not! Can God bring you through any storm? YES! He is waiting for you to give it to him, all you have to do is following His lead and trust fully in him.

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